unconditional situation

After facing much crucial period of my father death, i am again in search of job which i am looking for which is not possible in current circumstances and i finally i have to compromise with the situation to cope of from the mental imbalance situation due to the major incidence happen with me which take away my clam and passion of me.
I was in dilemma whether to do a job or just study for competitive exam but for survival i am forced to do which i never wanted to do as it doesn't favorable to me and my perception.

I always wanted to do different things in my life to make myself as well as my family to be happy but that period yet to come but i tried a lot to do different different things till now. The things which i observed have desired to do much on that. you know some kind of incredible creativity.

But its well as creative person never exist for long till his work appreciated by the people but nevertheless i am still optimistic about it. whenever i get to do something new i used to try it for once and there itself i get to know more closely about the particular thing.

Its world where u cann't do anything unless u try for every thing. just experience every work every people and every situation which not only boost up your confidence but also make you strong from inside to face the challenge of life.

Its well said after every darkness there is brightness , after every failure there is success in the same way after much sorrowful moment there comes happiest moment don't forget the failure or sorrowful moment always make us to learn the reality of life. it reminds us our purpose and ambition.

my beloved father had always one dream that i should do which make him proud as a father and always be positive, never giveup in any case and do needful to needy this all qualities i learn from my father and i try to follow it also. my father would always been a inspiration throughout my life and will be forever till my life left.

I just want to fullfill my duty for which i came here as my father is no more but his dream and his principles and inspiration will always inspire me in my career. although he was not with me but he will always remain in my heart forever.

Now i have a big responsibility to looking after my mother and two sister and sometime i feel much lonely and helpless but thanks to god who always make a way for me in order to remain stable.

I am trying and hopefully oneday i will get it to shine .

love u all.....

Ravi