The most horrifying moment of my life which completely shivered me all around was when i my father found that he was suffering from most dangerous disease cancer which everyone fears of it as it known to everybody. The moment i came to know about this i was shocked how this could be possible as if i know that my father was no having any short of problem except the pain which later on became more vulnerable for him & rest every thing was normal. He never ever been undergone any such disease as he used to do regular exercise but not knowing how this develops in the body (lung). Although he used to smoke but smoking not only the reason of this disease. If i sell many person who is of 70-80 yrs of age are used to smoke & they never ever been found such situation.
As i understand its all because of the time which play different role in different situation. All the problems are not known to us. I was completely exhausted & horrified thinking about my father who was soon going to leave this world and keep us solitary in this world. its been diffcult for me to tolerate. I lost my hope on the day when i heared this news but my confidence boost up from my friends and family who raise thier hopes in most terrible moment. I started the treatment of my fahter in Applo BSR hospital earlier the test i.e. Biospy i don't know at that time. Then after after 2-3 days we decided to go for Applo BSR hosital Bhilai. we went to utai near bhilai which our phoopa home they go with us till applo hosiptial till admission. In this way after 2-3 days in hospital we survive and most importantly my father who has at least 50-70%hope that he will soon recover from this disease. Nobody knows anything about this disease. it took almost 5-6 days to start the final treatment. They pass on the day saying some excuses but nobody cares of such patient. There is no such compensation or any other help for such patient. Overall its totally most vulnerable moment for me, papa and mom. Especially my father who continousy suffered alot inside as well as out side the hospital during chemotherapy. My mom she used to pray to god daily inside the hospital for speed recovery of my father. we have no other means of sleeping material me and mom used to sleep in one short bed which is very elastic but we manged it somehow. I was totally lost not know what to do & that time my mom was biggest supporter of me. He raise the hope in me and told me to fight against such terrified & difficult situation. I remember the last day when my father was undergoing through 3rd chemotherapy and the date which was given to us was 6 feb but we missed the day and we went there on 10th as on the 6th i was having the exam in Nagpur. Doctor scolded us for this on the next day on 11feb at 12 o clock i was sleeping in the ground floor and my mom was sitting near to my father she was shocked when she found that my father was muttering something without saying anything. he was found difficulty in taking breathe. doctor immediately admitted him to ICU ward. we even not get permission for two days to meet my father. i was scared what could happen and how it happened not even able to believe such thing. I can't express it because it so sorrowful and so miserable that no one could not even think of it. soon doctor told that the meta sis of the disease has been reached to the brain in part and in tiny particle and his heat beat was also increased & problem of heart also created. so its very difficult to say how much he can live and how long he can tolerate this & from that point onwards i lost all my hopes and everything then we taken him back to home. he was okay but his body was toally become thin. After 5 month of struggle (26 november to 11 march) he finally left us alone in this world. we not only lost our father but also the biggest inspiration of my life who inpsired me, motivate me always in any condition. he used to make us laugh and make us to cry but never tried to share his feelings in front of us. The pain he took for us for whole life was not full filled my anyone else. Atlast i just hope he should comeback again in any form of in our life to lets us give an opportunity to do something for him and i take pledge that i will try to fulfill all his responsibility which he left over me and on my shoulder and i will try to complete it papa . For this i just need your blessing and blessing of mom. you and mom will always with me throughout my life.
Thank you...hope it sad but its my feeling
Gud night friends
As i understand its all because of the time which play different role in different situation. All the problems are not known to us. I was completely exhausted & horrified thinking about my father who was soon going to leave this world and keep us solitary in this world. its been diffcult for me to tolerate. I lost my hope on the day when i heared this news but my confidence boost up from my friends and family who raise thier hopes in most terrible moment. I started the treatment of my fahter in Applo BSR hospital earlier the test i.e. Biospy i don't know at that time. Then after after 2-3 days we decided to go for Applo BSR hosital Bhilai. we went to utai near bhilai which our phoopa home they go with us till applo hosiptial till admission. In this way after 2-3 days in hospital we survive and most importantly my father who has at least 50-70%hope that he will soon recover from this disease. Nobody knows anything about this disease. it took almost 5-6 days to start the final treatment. They pass on the day saying some excuses but nobody cares of such patient. There is no such compensation or any other help for such patient. Overall its totally most vulnerable moment for me, papa and mom. Especially my father who continousy suffered alot inside as well as out side the hospital during chemotherapy. My mom she used to pray to god daily inside the hospital for speed recovery of my father. we have no other means of sleeping material me and mom used to sleep in one short bed which is very elastic but we manged it somehow. I was totally lost not know what to do & that time my mom was biggest supporter of me. He raise the hope in me and told me to fight against such terrified & difficult situation. I remember the last day when my father was undergoing through 3rd chemotherapy and the date which was given to us was 6 feb but we missed the day and we went there on 10th as on the 6th i was having the exam in Nagpur. Doctor scolded us for this on the next day on 11feb at 12 o clock i was sleeping in the ground floor and my mom was sitting near to my father she was shocked when she found that my father was muttering something without saying anything. he was found difficulty in taking breathe. doctor immediately admitted him to ICU ward. we even not get permission for two days to meet my father. i was scared what could happen and how it happened not even able to believe such thing. I can't express it because it so sorrowful and so miserable that no one could not even think of it. soon doctor told that the meta sis of the disease has been reached to the brain in part and in tiny particle and his heat beat was also increased & problem of heart also created. so its very difficult to say how much he can live and how long he can tolerate this & from that point onwards i lost all my hopes and everything then we taken him back to home. he was okay but his body was toally become thin. After 5 month of struggle (26 november to 11 march) he finally left us alone in this world. we not only lost our father but also the biggest inspiration of my life who inpsired me, motivate me always in any condition. he used to make us laugh and make us to cry but never tried to share his feelings in front of us. The pain he took for us for whole life was not full filled my anyone else. Atlast i just hope he should comeback again in any form of in our life to lets us give an opportunity to do something for him and i take pledge that i will try to fulfill all his responsibility which he left over me and on my shoulder and i will try to complete it papa . For this i just need your blessing and blessing of mom. you and mom will always with me throughout my life.
Thank you...hope it sad but its my feeling
Gud night friends
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